'Why I did not take up a nursing career earlier on in my life was that
at school, I lacked confidence big time and left without the qualifications
I needed. I started to take O Levels after I left school but then I
became pregnant and stopped. Studying later on is different from being
at school because then you are more mature, you have a bit more life
experience.
What helped me to make that first step was that I knew my strength
was in caring. And I knew I had reached the right time to study because
my daughter had just started school.
I definitely started changing when I began the Access course.
I found it to be a really good foundation for coming onto the Diploma
in Nursing course, and the feedback I received helped me to grow from
strength to strength. In fact, it made me realise what my strengths
were. The Access course brought it all out of me.
To be honest before my Access course, I don't think I knew who
I really was. One thing that stuck in my mind was my tutor telling me
that passing my driving test was a real achievement. I had never really
looked at it in that way before. It helped me to realise that even things
not related to nursing were important, and all of this just built up
my confidence.
Courage is important. You say to yourself, 'Can I? Can I do it?
Can I not do it? But once you start doing it, you think, 'Oh wow, I
am actually doing it! I am still shocked by the things I have achieved.
Every successful assignment has just boosted me even more.
What has helped me to stay on the course is that my confidence is higher
than it has ever been before. When I am doing the assignments, I don't
find them easier as I go along but when I look back and see what I've
achieved, I find that I understand more about what is expected of us.
I have ambitions now. I would like to specialise in a particular area.
I was thinking about cardiology but when I am doing my placements, different
ideas come to mind. I think I am just so excited about the idea of being
in nursing, that everything is appealing to me at the moment so I am
not going to decide just yet.'