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A reflection from the Revd Jenny Morgans, Chaplain to the Denmark Hill campus

Welcome! Whether you’re in London or elsewhere, new or an old hand, student or staff, welcome to this new term at King’s.  I’m quite a visual person, and I always associate this time of year with the colour yellow.  Yellow is usually a spring colour, but for me September more than any other time represents new life and new starts.  This time of year always feels like a new beginning even when nothing has actually changed.  For me, September still smells like new shoes and carries in the air the thrill of fresh pencils. 

This September is a tricky one.  Any newness is tinged with its strangeness, tainted by the ongoing restrictions and the uncertainty about what teaching and learning and community can look like amidst COVID-19.  Some students are encountering London and King’s for the first time amidst an eerie quasi-lockdown.  Some students are hundreds or thousands of miles from London and won’t be visiting any time soon.  Some staff are busier than ever while some don’t have enough to do. 

This September feels neither thrilling nor comforting, yet for some reason I still seem to be wearing my yellow-tinted lenses.  I’m reminded that yellow is also a colour often associated with Easter.  There’s a great poem about Easter cards by Eleanor Nesbitt (pdf, 132 KB).  The first line simply reads ‘daffodils mostly.’  It demonstrates the association, at least in the West, of new life with these beautiful spring flowers.  Easter is about more than new life – it’s about resurrection and the overcoming of death and despair.  The poem also speaks of life’s darkness and the brutality of death, so close to our consciousness at the moment.  As the poem says, daffodils are an unoffensive and ubiquitous way of celebrating Jesus’s new life and its power to inspire and transform, some two millennia later. 

Being Welsh, daffodils have even more significance for me.  They speak of home, of welcome, of remembering the good things about where we have come from and about who we are. 

Whatever your circumstances this September, I hope you get a sense of newness, of positive change, of inspiration and the overcoming of despair.  Remember that you are not alone, reach out to others and try new things.  When it feels hard, think yellow thoughts.  May this new term bring you ‘daffodils mostly.’

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A reflection from Dr Clare Dowding, Business Manager for the Dean's Office & Chaplaincy

Being alone, being lonely, and just being

Bench photoI’ve been thinking a lot in the last few months about the difference between being alone and being lonely.  I live on my own, so when lockdown started I wasn’t worried about having to get used to being alone, because that’s my default state anyway.  I was concerned about being lonely, though, and at times this has indeed been the case.

On the whole, I like living on my own.  I like being able to close the door behind me when I get home of an evening, and shut out the world when I need to.  I like the fact that I’ve got somewhere to sit in silence when I want to, if I need to recharge my batteries.  But this all relies on the state of being on my own as something which is clearly separated from the state of being with other people – and of course since March this has been very rare indeed.

Of course, I’ve seen and talked to people in that time, whether it’s on the ubiquitous Zoom and Teams calls, or on the regulated trips to the shops for groceries.  But being with people, spending time in the company of others – that’s something which I wasn’t able to do until recently, and that’s where being lonely is different from being on my own.

It’s a generalisation, but I’ve come to think that being on your own is sometimes a choice, but being lonely is never a choice.  As a Christian, I believe that in Jesus God chose to become human, to come and be with people.  We are therefore best placed to be all that God wants us to be when we engage with other people.  Yes, of course this can be done online and in phone calls and in other ways, but there seems to be a lot of comment as we start to come out of lockdown that for all the wonders of technology, there’s just something about being with people which video-calling just can’t reproduce.

As I write this, I’m looking forward to going to spend a week with my parents in south Wales.  As much as I’m looking forward to going for a walk on the beach (not something it’s been possible to do in south-east London!), I’m even more looking forward just to spending time in the same house as other people.

One of King’s most well-known alumni, Archbishop Desmond Tutu, has written a lot about the philosophy of ‘ubuntu’, which can be expressed in terms of understanding that “I am because other people are”.  To start to know the fulness of our own humanity, we have to engage with others in the fulness of their humanity.  As we start to think about we operate beyond lockdown, we should keep in mind those who sometimes choose to be on their own, and those who never choose to be lonely, and see how each of us can encourage everyone truly to be, whatever their situation. 

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A reflection from the Revd Jenny Morgans, Chaplain to the Denmark Hill campus

Housing is a big deal to God.  God intends for all to have houses, for houses to be freely given to all.  This is true both literally and metaphorically.

Homefulness JMWalter Brueggemann is a commentator on the Hebrew Bible (or Old Testament as it’s often called).  In a lovely little book called Homefulness, he talks about the importance of ‘Home’ throughout the Hebrew Bible: home with ourselves and with God.  But mostly, he talks about home as a radical act of justice: providing a home for the foreigner, for the orphan or the widow.  The thing about foreigners, orphans and widows, he argues, is not so much that they were poor or destitute or oppressed, although they were often these things.  No – he says that in the social structures of the time, to be foreign or orphaned or widowed was to be cut off from society.  It was to have no lineage, no advocacy, no name, no means, no connections, and thus no identity.  Without these things, they were ‘everywhere at risk’.  To be orphaned was to be totally marginalised and excluded from all the support structures that protected and included people.  The Hebrew Bible’s insistence that the orphan be provided for and welcomed into the community did not simply ensure that all had physical homes, but rather that all were able to belong.

Before I trained for ordination, I lived in Sheffield with a number of asylum seekers.  William, a quiet man from Ghana who made an excellent jollof rice, was suddenly deported with no warning.  Zamir, from Iraq, was excellent on my sewing machine because he had worked with textiles before leaving home.  Amos would do everyone’s washing up, singing Christmas carols whatever the time of year.  I learnt so much from living with these men.  I was their host, but I was always also an honoured guest.

Homefulness is God-filled act of inclusion and home-ing.  But it is not an optional addition to faith.  Instead, it is a requirement.  Brueggemann writes that to believe inGodis to act justly.  To believe in God is to do what God does.  God loves the stranger, you love the stranger.  God gives food and clothing, you give food and clothing.  God says, ‘I am here, where bread and house and clothing are shared.  And where there is no such sharing, there will be no such healing presence’.  Because sharing brings belonging.

‘Yahweh is not a God safely in heaven or in church, but Yahweh is in fact a specific social practice’.

You be the social practice whereby God is made visible, available and effective in the world.  Belonging is essential to all of our wellbeing, while loneliness is to feel orphaned from our own communities and selves.  Homefulness means: that I need you, and you need me; that my story only makes sense when I hear your story; that your pain diminishes my very self. 

So, ask yourselves: What does homefulness look like in a world adapting to COVID-19?  And how can you make it happen?

 

Reference: Brueggemann, W, The Practice of Homefulness (Eugene, OR: Wipf and Stock, 2014)

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A reflection from Dr Joseph Fort, College Organist, Director of the Chapel Choir & Lecturer in Music:

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In the history of music making, perhaps the biggest shake-up that it has ever received came around a hundred years ago, with the advent of recording technology. Prior to then, music had always been an ‘in-person’ activity; it only happened live. If you wanted to hear a piece of music, you had to persuade or pay someone to play or sing it to you; or you had to make the music yourself—to D I Y. With recording, though, you could suddenly have music in your living room without the humans required to make it actually being simultaneously present. For the first time, you could hear music that someone made a day, or a month, or a year or decade earlier.

 

The present lockdown situation has brought sharply into focus questions over the value of music’s live-ness. Various technical challenges make live streams of performance somewhat risky, and—in the case of multiple performers in different locations—sometimes impossible. Various strange solutions have sprung up—perhaps the strangest coming from the Tokyo Symphony Orchestra a few days ago, playing along live to a pre-recorded video of their conductor.

Yet, for all the technical challenges that live performance can present, the lockdown has to some extent underscored its value. Yes, we can listen to innumerable wonderful recordings of performances by real stars, from years gone by, but somehow nothing quite replaces the excitement of a live performance, and particularly the connection that this brings. Haydn was a composer who thought about that connection with his audience: every piece is designed to provoke a reaction in his audience—to connect with them.

Yellow TheatrePerhaps this is why there remains a strong desire for liveness, such that even though we can listen to a recording of a piece any time we still get something of a thrill from listening to it live, together with other people.

When we put together our A Moment of Calm series in May and June—our Compline-inspired online video offering—a key feature of these were that they would be live (wherever possible). People might enjoy and benefit from watching them later, but it’s still not quite the same as watching live.

One area in which further thought into liveness might be interesting is that of prayer, and particularly communal prayer. A fundamental feature of in-person services is that of unification through joint prayer; how does this change (if at all) when the prayer is initially uttered several hours or days before, on a pre-recorded video? Of course, repetition has always been a crucial part of prayer, for at least two thousand years, but this seems different, somehow.

The lockdown has meant finding new ways of connection, and in some cases re-defining what that connection means. It has also reminded us of the importance of connection between each other, whether made through speech, through song, or through prayer.

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A reflection from Romana Kazmi, Muslim Chaplain:

Reclaiming our heart vision.

With the Coronavirus pandemic, and all the struggles we are facing in the world today, what we need more than ever, is to strengthen and connect more to our heart's vision and insight over our physical vision and sight.

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There is a difference between our physical vision, and our inner heart-sight, our spiritual vision.  Our physical eye looks outside of us and sees realities in the world around us. The heart's eye looks within and sees greater realities beyond what the physical eye sees. 

Therefore, we need to start strengthening our inner, heart-vision, for when we go through hardships and struggles such as our current pandemic, our ability to receive guidance, and derive the truth, peace, meaning, and wisdom we need, depends on cultivating and strengthening our spiritual vision.

I feel a sense of solidarity with all workers in the hospital, who I have been more heavily supporting. They are all on the front lines of this crisis and it is an honour to be there with them. . I try to remind everyone that right now, it’s critical that we take care of ourselves so that we can take care of others. I know that I could not do this work otherwise.

As Chaplains, the work we do is to show up by providing a compassionate presence to offer spiritual and emotional support during a crisis. Where human touch offers understanding and warmth. It was the thing I most struggled with while working with end of life care. There’s a lot we’re missing out on… but those that hurt the most are such human moments & experiences. I had to remind myself that compassion means never running away from pain.

I struggled with it, but I try to remind myself that people are resilient — they contain within them the seeds of their own healing.

With so much time for reflection, I have  come a long way to reconcile these tensions in my emotions, that two truths in being sad and grateful can co-exist, and that there’s always a silver lining .it’s ok to grieve the loss of normalcy, our opportunities, the routine of life but that the silver lining in all this disruption is that we’re pushed to unlearn very fundamental parts of ourselves, our identity. 

I have never felt more introspective, and ironically in all this social distancing closer to the people in life.

The physical eye may see the hardships of the Coronavirus as great, but it is the spiritual eye, the eye of our heart, that sees God as greater.

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A reflection from the Revd Tim Ditchfield FKC, College Chaplain & Acting Dean:

spriteI guess we have all had time to look back at what has helped us through this time. I have found this very challenging at times as someone who struggles with anxiety and depression. I’ve found poetry especially helpful this time. And our cats. And cooking.

Our cats are completely unaware of any external issues of course as long as they get food and cuddles. They are loving the extra opportunities to sit on laps and bomb our various Zoom and Microsoft Teams calls. And the need to look after them is a good fixed point in our lives. They show us how to relax.

I have for many years enjoyed cooking and now I have more time to discover some new recipes and revisit ones I haven’t used for ages. I have started working on a weekly menu so I have time to think what I’d like to cook and make sure I don’t buy too much food. We are fortunate through all of this time to have had enough to eat and I am so grateful for this and a safe place to live. Each time I cook I am mindful of those who don’t have enough.

This time has taught us how fragile our lives are and to be thankful for each day we have enough to eat and a safe place to live and family and friends to share our lives with.

Thankfully I’ve not been writing ‘such bloody awful poetry’ in the words of the Smiths but other people’s poetry has been a real blessing for me. I have always loved poetry since studying First World War poetry for A levels in the dark and distant past. Reading Wilfred Owen and others showed me how poetry could have a real power to challenge and unsettle as well as being beautifully crafted and celebratory.

I started sending an email to our Senior Management Team each week firstly to thank them for all their work and remind them of the need to rest and be refreshed as we were likely to be in this for the long haul. And I chose this poem by Wendell Berry:

The Peace of Wild Things, Wendell Berry

When despair for the world grows in me

and I wake in the night at the least sound

in fear of what my life and my children’s lives may be,

I go and lie down where the wood drake

rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds.

I come into the peace of wild things

who do not tax their lives with forethought

of grief. I come into the presence of still water.

And I feel above me the day-blind stars

waiting with their light. For a time

I rest in the grace of the world, and am free.

Since then this has become a thing and I have revisited poets I have known and discovered poets new to me such as Roger Robinson as I continue to send a poem each week. It isn’t much in one sense but it has also opened up many conversations and I rather like the fact that I am talking about poetry with King’s senior colleagues.

Poetry speaks to our hearts in a very powerful way – at least it speaks to my heart.

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A reflection from the Revd Jim Craig, Chaplain to the Guy's Campus:

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I’m writing this having just finished leading a weekly mindfulness session on MS Teams. I’m not the only member of Chaplaincy to run such sessions – my colleague Jenny also runs a weekly session on a Wednesday morning. A regular practice of mindfulness has proven to lower stress levels and improve both mental and physical wellbeing. I think it particularly relevant to university chaplaincy as it does not force participants to make declarations of faith. There will be people like myself who find it very useful for leading oneself into prayer, but others can just enjoy the invitation to give themselves an extended moment of calm. This calm can descend when participants allow themselves to step away from the time-based anxieties which trouble us in our daily lives.

As busy human beings we can be so preoccupied with both the past and the future that we completely fail to notice the present moment in all it’s colour and substance. We can be so locked into perfectly reasonable daily goals and targets that we spend the vast majority of that day on autopilot, completely ignorant of the people and places who are before us. In fact, in a constant state of business and haste we can go through almost an entire day without actually experiencing anything. We simply recognise objects and devices and contacts who have proven useful to us in some way. We are like computer algorithms clothed in flesh and completely detached from our senses.

Mindfulness, therefore, is one of a number of practices which can gently return our senses to an attentiveness to the present moment. The poet Robert Browning saw the artist as another ‘practitioner’ who has the power to draw people back into this existential relationship with ‘now’. He says in his poem Fra Lippo Lippi:-

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‘We're made so that we love

First when we see them painted, things we have passed

Perhaps a hundred times nor cared to see;

And so they are better, painted—better to us,

Which is the same thing.’

 

In our time of lockdown, I’m sure we could all make a vast list of similar practices which have helped bring us back to a greater appreciation for the present moment. Artists, musicians, film, television, books, poetry, radio, and even a conversation  with a good friend. These practices all help us to love things that we have walked past ‘perhaps a hundred times nor cared to see.’ I find that there is a tangible sense of healing to be had in the present moment. Once you’ve fought off the distractions which can lead you backwards or forwards in time, the present moment is a rich tapestry of resurrection.

The God who called out to Moses from the burning bush announced himself as ‘the being’, the ‘I am’. If there’s one thing we can grateful for these last few months it’s the opportunity to reflect on who we are and what we’re worth when we’re no longer slaves to our endless task lists.

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A reflection from Nat Frangos in the Dean's Office:

 

another worldAnother world is possible – if we can only be brave enough to remake this one.

We find ourselves in the liminal space between the pre-Coronavirus and post-Coronavirus worlds – this is a transitional time, and it can be transformative.

Let’s not be content to continue with a way of life that no longer serves us, because ‘that’s how it is, and how it’s always been’. It doesn’t have to be this way, and we don’t have to live like this anymore.

 

Now is the time for ideas and the audacity to speak up, to take individual and collective responsibility for what is broken in this world - whether or not we caused the damage, whether or not what is broken affects us - and commit wholeheartedly to working together to repair all for the common good.

We have every tool necessary for this task – imagination, knowledge, skills, talents, gifts, energy and materials are in abundant supply among us - we just need to be willing to fully share who we are and what we have, to create the good we want to enjoy, as individuals and communally, in this world.

Be under no illusion - remaking the world will take courage and co-operation, concern and care. It may mean that we will need to face and endure risk, embarrassment, danger and pain. It will require selflessness and sacrifice. Love, not fear, should guide our way forward.

upcycleIt is no longer acceptable for us to disregard injustice and the suffering of others. It is no longer acceptable for us to invest our resources in throwaway things, without consideration, that suffocate livelihoods and poison the environment.

Pleading ignorance is for the past – we are living through the final stage of the Information Age and there can be no more excuses for not knowing any better. We must open our eyes and ears, our minds and hearts – the alternative is the slow death of humanity. There is so much available to us at the simple touch of a button, and we have so much potential to explore and develop. Let us learn from, and teach, each other. With sincerity and resilience, empathy and grace.

Friends, we are making heroes of the wrong professions, and we are letting technology use us. Celebrity culture is diverting resources and attention away from those that really need it. Let’s stop paying people to enrich themselves through self-promotion at our expense and shun the trend of being manipulated to feel guilt and shame about ourselves, and jealousy and resentment towards others.

When did you last feel free of the pressure to be anyone other than who you really are? What kind of world are you investing in every time you open your purse/wallet or tap your card on the card reader? How much is enough?

Let’s put a high value on the content of character and uplift and reward those who toil in the service of others. Let’s rediscover the joy and comfort of community and serve our neighbours in any way we can, big or small. Let’s be better, do better, and make better choices.

Just think about it – a BIG, DEEP, OUT-OF-BODY think – what would you change to improve the quality of your life, the lives of others, the state of the earth? What would it take to bring about that change, however small?

Do that thing. Do it now. You’ve got this. We’ve got this.

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A reflection from our Associate Chaplain, the Revd Jarel Robinson-Brown:

 

BLMGeorge Floyd’s murder didn’t shock me.

On one level, I hope that statement in itself is shocking. But it’s true, the video of George Floyd having the life snuffed out of him, didn’t shock me. All my life I have grown up and lived with the awareness of the fragility and the vulnerability of black lives. Through a myriad of subtle and visceral cues I learnt very early on that to much of the world black lives, my life, my friends lives - were and continue to be expendable. Black people die at the hands of white supremacy and racial injustice all the time, and there are long list of names of which I have known and been aware which many of the rest of the world are only now discovering. This is what it means to grow up black – growing daily with the reality of premature death. I have lived with the experience of school friends who’s seats were suddenly left vacant not necessarily by racist violence but by a violence borne of socio-economic neglect and knife crime in a City policed by those who several times stopped and searched my friends and I with a force and vilification twinned with the presumption of guilt that meant your skin made you eligible to be handled and spoken to in the most inhumane of ways.

My earliest memory of the police as a child is of a white police officer at an event prior to Notting Hill Carnival with his foot on the head of a black man who, as far as my memory serves, posed little threat to the little boy in close proximity to him. These things, particularly in the midst of a pandemic which poses a particular threat to the BAME community, come flying back into the mind’s eye when you witness the harrowing video of George Floyd’s last moments. For those of us who are black and in the UK or USA, the issues behind the current protests are not new – they have been part of a struggle we have been fighting with less than enough solidarity for years.

Now, as possibly the first Chaplain at King’s of African descent, I live with the experience and insight from my life and ministry which has opened my eyes to the reality of the world’s brokenness. In 2008, I led the memorial service in Southwark for Lyle Tulloch a 15 year-old black teenager stabbed 13 times in London in gang violence. In 2018, I found myself as the Minister for the Church which Stephen Lawrence attended, in which his funeral was held and in which Sunday by Sunday I preached from the pulpit which stood beside a stained-glass window of him. As someone who grew up in the same city in which dear Stephen lost his life, I was aware of the brutality with which young black men so frequently lose their lives, and the justice which their families were often denied – and for years, I lived wondering if I would ever live to see 28 years of life as I have. George Floyd’s murder has ignited protests all around the world – but let us not be fooled into thinking that the protests we see are only about what happened to George Floyd. The protests that we are witnessing are the result of a people who have grown tired, they are the result of a people who have lived for more than 401 years in a world of racial injustice, a world which has benefited financially from the abuse, torture, enslavement and exploitation of black people – these protests are the result of a people and their allies who are saying enough is enough. As a preacher of the Gospel and as a queer black man, it’s important for me to say that not only do Black Lives Matter, but All Black Lives Matter, and most importantly they matter to God. I hope a time will come when saying this is not necessary, but George Floyd is a harsh reminder - that time is not yet now.

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A reflection from our Baptist Chaplain, the Revd Dr Simon Woodman:

 

FieldAs a Chaplain-by-night, Baptist-minister-by-day, my Lockdown has been mostly concerned with the challenges posed by helping my congregation, Bloomsbury Central Baptist Church, work out what it is to ‘be church’ when we are exiled from our building. One of the early questions we had to face was whether, as part of our Zoom Webinar Sunday morning services, we should share communion.

It is often said amongst Baptists that our buildings are a function of our faith, rather than integral to it. I paraphrase. What is actually often said is that, ‘we could worship in the woods if we had to’. What traditionally matters for Baptists is the gathering and the worship, not where we do it. But the Coronavirus epidemic has raised a slightly different question for us, which is that of whether we need to ‘gather’ physically at all, for church to still be church.

There is of course biblical precedent for ‘virtual fellowship’, just ask St Paul, who continued his ministry in a variety of congregations while physically distant from them, using the technology available at the time (and inadvertently writing a large part of the New Testament while he was at it).

It seems to me that when God’s scattered people share bread and wine intentionally and in harmony, the sacramental moment is still to be found. So I decided to write a liturgy for Baptists to use for ‘Scattered communion’, which can be accessed here.

There are a number of elements of this liturgy which it is worth reflecting on.

It is multi-voiced.

One of the important features of our early experimenting with an online gathering has been to make it as multi-voiced as possible. The congregation ministers to one another, even as they are led in worship. It is our conviction that what will sustain the church through these difficult times is the fellowship and community that binds us to each other.

The image of scattering and gathering

There is a Baptist communion prayer which says, ‘As this bread, once scattered over the hills, was brought together and became one loaf, so, Lord, may your Church be united and brought together from the ends of the earth into your Kingdom.’ While this prayer is not used in my liturgy, it generated the idea of the grain and the grapes having their origin in separation, but finding their fulfilment in communion.

3 The broken and re-membered body of Christ

There is something profound about the brokenness of God’s people mirroring the brokenness of Christ’s body on the cross, and the sharing of communion ‘in remembrance’ is symbolic of the fact that we are always now incomplete and imperfect and broken, and that we long for greater communion with God and with one another.

The image of manna

Jesus spoke of himself as the bread of life which comes down from heaven, as the fulfilment of the hope which the gift of manna in the wilderness pointed to. As manna sustained God’s people in the wilderness, so the bread of life sustains us as we too journey through difficulty and danger towards the hope that holds us.

The words of institution

It seemed important to include the words that are normally spoken over the bread and wine in our regular church services, rooting our scattered communion in our previous (and hopefully future) practice of gathered communion.

The prayer of thanksgiving

This emphasises the hope of future wholeness even as we are scattered and broken in the present, grounded in the incarnation and the cross of Christ, and held by the assurance of God’s eternal loving ingathering.

Jeremiah’s promise to the exiles

The taking of bread and wine are both introduced by promises of restoration given by Jeremiah to the exiles in Babylon. As we are exiled from our church, and from our normal lives, we need to hear again the promises of hope that infuse our faith tradition.

The promise of Jesus to his disciples

The service concludes with the words of Jesus to his disciples that even when they are scattered, they can have peace, courage, and hope.

(You can read a longer version of this reflection here.

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A reflection from our Orthodox Chaplain, James Johnson:

 

Child pathLockdown can be described on many levels. When people ask me how we are (that’s me, my wife, and our two children, three years and 11 months old), I usually explain that our routine isn’t so different. We wake up, earlier or later, depending on the previous night, have breakfast, play in our back yard, which may involve cycling around in circles, playing football or hide and seek, then we have lunch, then walk to our local park, where we play and explore (amazingly, there usually is something we haven’t yet noticed). Then we head home, eat supper, watch a cartoon, read a book, and go to bed. I also work, which happens in between or during all these things. The other constants in our days are Lego (building boats at the moment), reading books, and dancing, if the mood or the music takes us.

The above description is slightly deceptive, because, as most other parents will testify, our days are also filled with laughter, tears, anger, joy, despair, love, worry, irritation and even peace. And that’s mostly just me. Sometimes I look at my son behaving like a three year-old, and see my own behaviour reflected back at me. Sometimes the emotions run so high that I feel like I’m in an opera.

Lockdown has made me ask myself what are the foundations of my life. My mother says that in some ways her life is more peaceful now, with nobody else in the house apart from my dad, but sometimes all the phone calls, emails and online chats make her feel fragmented. That is exactly the word. But I am pulled in different directions by fear of the future, sentimentality about the past, and by my frustration at not being able to do what I want to do. All these feelings pull me away from the present, which is the only place I can have a relationship with everyone around me and, most importantly, with God. Our children truly live in the present — why can’t I?

 

Listening to a piece of beautiful music helps, as does trying to give my undivided attention to my wife and children. But best of all is to look up and away from myself and thank God, not just for the things I have (and there is much I can be grateful for in these difficult times) but for everything, despite my fragmentedness, my weakness and my childishness.

One of my favourite prayers, the Akathist “Glory to God for All Things”, was written by Fr Gregory Petrov in the Soviet Gulag. It came from an awful place but you would never know it, as it is filled with such a sense of peace, beauty and thanksgiving to God. Here is an extract:

Child TreeI was born a weak, defenceless child, but your angel, spreading his radiant wings, guarded my cradle. From my birth, your love has illumined my paths, and has wondrously guided me towards the light of eternity.

From my first day until now, the generous gifts of your providence have been wonderfully showered upon me. I give you thanks, and with all those who have come to know you, I exclaim:

Glory to you for calling me into being,

Glory to you for spreading out before me the beauty of the universe,

Glory to you for revealing to me through heaven and earth the eternal book of wisdom,

Glory to your eternity within this fleeting world,

Glory to you for your mercies, seen and unseen,

Glory to you for every sigh of my sorrow,

Glory to you for every step in my life’s journey, for every moment of joy,

Glory to you, O God, from age to age.

Amen!

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A reflection from our Jewish Chaplain, Dr Harrie Cedar:

 

Kabbalistic TofLKabbalistic Tree of Life with the Ten Sephirot

1 Keter - crown

2 Hokhma – knowledge

3 Binah - understanding

4 Hesod / Chesed – loving kindness, benevolence

5 Gevurah – justice, disciple, restraint, awe

6 Tiferet – beauty, harmony, compassion

7Netzah – endurance, fortitude, ambition

8 Hod - humility, splendour

9 Yesod – bonding, foundation

10 Malkuth - nobility, sovereignty, leadership

A space in time

Lockdown has become a new FOMO (Fear of Missing Out). Instead of seeing better social lives than our own on media outlets we now are encouraged to compete to have a more successful lockdown than anybody else, full of achievements and accomplishments. Thank goodness the Choir of King's College London came up with A Moment of Calm.

Judaism has been doing a spiritual lockdown for over 3000 years.  In the Hebrew calendar we are currently in a period of time just after the 10 plagues of Egypt which sent us out into an Exodus, passing through the sea into the desert, a liminal space.

This desert gives rise to the fourth book of the Torah, Bamidbar (in the desert) which is called Numbers in English. We count the days between leaving Egypt (the festival of Pesach- Passover) and gathering at Mount Sinai for divine revelation (which we celebrate as Shavuot, Weeks). Numbers mark time and space. We call these days ‘Omer’. What we receive at Mount Sinai is Torah and the 10 commandments, the ultimate lockdown list.

The Omer is a time period of seven weeks, 49 day during which we are meant to work on ourselves and our behaviours, in readiness for revelation. We have a minor celebration during the Omer on the 33rd day for Rabbi Shimon bar Yochai, who is thought to have written the Zohar, the mystical book of Kabbalah, which forms the basis of this self-improvement. The Zohar codifies the spiritual underpinning of the Torah. It illuminates the world by bringing elements of holiness down through a ‘Tree of Life’ whose roots are in heaven and whose branches descend into this realm. The branches of the Tree of Life represent characteristics of the divine name in ten ‘Sephirot’, manifestations or aspects of holiness such as humility and kindness, that we are meant to emulate.

Shimon bar Yochai lived about 2000 years ago in Israel. At that time Israel had come under Roman occupation and had been given a Latin name by the occupiers, Palestine. The tale is told of his nattering about ‘what did the Romans do for us’ which was rather unflattering. This conversation was reported back to the Romans and Rabbi Yochai was sentenced to death. He escaped to a cave, with his son, and lived there for 12 years until his sentence was annulled. During his years in lockdown, their discussions led to the written Zohar.

At the time of this piece appearing, we will have 2 weeks of the Omer to go and perhaps, an end to this current lockdown. Hopefully, we shall reach our own Mount Sinai and have some revelation about ourselves and our lives which will result in our having learnt the essential life-skill we all need, being kinder.

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A reflection from the Revd Canon Dr Keith Riglin, Chaplain at the St Thomas' campus & Assistant Dean:

 

During this lockdown, I’m finding comfort in the words of the American theologian Reinhold Niebuhr (1892-1971). He said, “God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.” It’s often known as the Serenity Prayer, and seems most appropriate for these days – learning and discerning that some things can be done during this time, but also grasping that there are some things, frustrating though it is, which we cannot change. My hope and prayer is that we will all find the wisdom “to know the difference.”

SerenityIf only it were an easy thing to do. I’m sure I’m not the only person who’s finding this period of lockdown somewhat challenging and frustrating. It’s true, I’ve been able to keep in touch with folk at King’s, and to keep up with some (though certainly not all) of the work which comes our way in the Chaplaincy. And throughout King’s we’ve found new ways of holding conversations and meetings, of discussing and praying.

Like many at King’s I’d also thought of all the things I could catch up on during the lockdown – work that had somehow got left behind or forgotten, that project which I always hoped to complete, the organizing of my at-home work space which I never quite got round to when I first moved in.

The frustration of it all is obvious, especially in King’s, where so much of our work is built upon the sense of community and personal relationships which informs our unique emphasis on teaching, research, and service. However, with serenity, with wisdom, we can find new ways of doing things which enable King’s to survive and flourish during these difficult days.

The Chaplaincy is here as a resource for this – I especially invite you to join us for A Moment of Calm every weekday evening at 5pm.

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Guess the Chaplain! ART in Isolation - 'Girls Night Out in Peck-hen':

'Exhibition for Chickens' - Curated by @father_of_dawdlers (Instagram)

Chicken disco

"The exhibits in the show ranged from sound work, performance work and dance to sculptures and works on paper.  My 'work' was a  cheapy cheep populist ruse  'Girls Night Out in Peck-hen' containing a version of Do the Funky Chicken by Rufus Thomas and a collection of 'flocktails' containing bird seed, which attracted the chickens and goats and led to its destruction. The whole piece was set, ironically, in a silver foil baking tray. It was accompanied by a  very wordy text. The 'artist' of this 'work' decided to remain anonymous, hiding behind a street name.

This  exhibition generally became highly 'interactive' due to the goats muscling in and eating all the exhibits. 

However: Louisa Buck wrote about the show in The Art Newspaper and you can read all about it here."

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A reflection from our Lutheran Chaplain, the Revd Sarah Farrow:

 

dogman-4863999_640Dogman and Rabbitgirl with Coffee - a sculpture in Spitalfields (Artists: Gillie and Marc)

"As part of my work, I have been sending on emails and advice about working and studying from home. I’ve been telling others how important it is to keep healthy, to exercise, to take the opportunity to learn new things and the importance of routine. But in recent weeks the most important thing I’ve learned is to remember the gift of acceptance and grace. We are each unique so I can't expect to react to the current situation as those around me are reacting – and that’s okay. There is no ‘one way’ to live in the midst of a global pandemic and lockdown. We are each going to find our own ways of coping and supporting one another.

 

I’ve heard recently that our stress response is like a fingerprint with a unique pattern set by our own unique experiences. No one else has lived your life so no one else will react the same way as you do when things change unexpectedly or when our routines and expectations are flipped upside down. So, I’ve been learning to accept that if my friend or colleague is reacting to the lockdown differently to me, that doesn't mean either of us are reacting 'wrong'. We are all finding our own way and that’s going to be different and that is okay. We will each have our own coping strategies and we can figure those out in conversations with one another, but not by comparing ourselves to one another.

I have now discovered that I really don’t like routine. I have now accepted I won’t become super-fit and I won’t be learning a new language or all of a sudden become some kind of superhuman. But I have rediscovered who I am – a unique person living in grace each day.

We all have different struggles and circumstances we’re coping with in this time and we encourage you reach out to a member of our Chaplaincy team if you would like to talk. We are here to listen and support you as you find your way – whether that is over email, video calls or a phone call."

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