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'Writing Against the Tide' - Chinese diaspora women & LGBTQIA+ writers tell their story

Yanran Yao

Affiliate Lecturer

23 September 2026

An autobiographical writing programme has brought together 15 Mandarin-speaking women and LGBTQIA+ members of the Chinese diaspora in the UK to write together over six months, culminating in a self-published anthology launched in London in June 2026. Queer China UK, a community organisation for the Chinese LGBTQIA+ diaspora in Britain, ran the programme in collaboration with King’s College London’s Co-Creating with Chinese Communities project, with support from the ESRC-funded Polarities and Regions Network Plus Fellowships and King’s Innovation Catalyst.

逆流 Writing Against the Tide is available at Guanghwa Bookshop’s Pride Mini Book Fair in London
逆流 Writing Against the Tide is available at Guanghwa Bookshop’s Pride Mini Book Fair in London.

Writing Against the Tide (逆流而写) grew out of ongoing conversations among Chinese diaspora communities, students, artists and scholars, particularly those from marginalised LGBTQIA+ communities. The project arose in response to changing geopolitical dynamics, with Chinese students and diaspora communities living in the UK often feeling a sense of partial belonging, while their experiences were influenced by both China and their lives abroad.

From these conversations, Queer China UK (QCU) designed and directed the workshop alongside London-based artist and facilitator J Wang, with guest contributors including Youjia Qian of Pubis Project. A total of fifteen participants were recruited, including students and recent graduates, all from diasporic Chinese women’s and LGBTQIA+ communities.

Many of us were reading works by diasporic and women writers like Xiaolu Guo. Then I started to wonder why we could not tell our own stories too.– Dr Yanran Yao, Lau China Institute

For some, autobiographical writing initially felt daunting. “I thought this was something I would have to do on my own, and that it would leave me exposed,” one participant recalled. At the beginning of the workshop, facilitator Jiaxi Wang led a discussion in which participants collaboratively defined how the space should function, focusing on queer privacy, safety, and neurodiversity needs. “I could speak in whichever language came most easily, and that was enough,” another participant said. “Nobody was asked to perform fluency in order to be understood.”

Across ten Saturdays between November 2025 and March 2026, participants experimented with different ways of writing diasporic life. One workshop began with food, taste and memories of home; another used zine-making to transform passports and visas from obstacles into materials exploring queer mobility and belonging. Participants also read and responded to one another’s work, gradually turning the workshop into a peer community.

The opening workshop, ‘Books in Diaspora: a fiction-writing workshop on the diasporic fetish object’, led by Youjia Qian of Pubis Project.

In the end, they brought these different forms, voices and experiences together in a self-published anthology of twelve works spanning prose, fiction, poetry, comics and handwritten pieces, offering a layered picture of queer Chinese diasporic life across countries, languages, families and questions of belonging.

In 阿呀 Aya’s 宿醉 (Hangover), the experience of living between places becomes a question of time, rendered through a haze of numbers, distances and time zones that echoes the disorientation of a hangover.

EXCERPTS FROM 宿醉 (HANGOVER)

两周,你们的距离是0小时,20英里。你想起ta。你绕着弯不想起ta。

或者一点一点,一缕一缕,一收一放,呼吸一样想ta。

……

数字是清晰的,世界是模糊的。

两周后,时隔4小时,4000英里,你想起ta。你不绕弯想ta。

Two weeks. The distance between you is nought hours, twenty miles. You think of ta. You take the long way round so as not to think of ta.

Or you think of ta a little at a time, thread by thread, holding and releasing, like breathing.

[…]

The numbers are clear; the world is blurred.

Two weeks on, four hours and four thousand miles apart, you think of ta. This time you do not take the long way round.

Aya explained that 宿醉 grew out of the months after her loss of grandmother and relationships, in the week when she was physically jet-lagged, feeling suspended between places and times.

A similar sense of unsettledness appears in An Uncomfortable Dictionary, her first piece of creative writing in English, but here the disorientation is racial as well as diasporic. “I was going through some sort of existential crises at the time, and my coping way was writing (instead of working).” Aya recalled. “One day, after receiving an uncomfortable gaze from the library security once again, I sat in the library, crying for fifty minutes. Then strong motivation and some sparks struck me. I started to conceptualize a story in a dictionary format, to write about the difficult-to-articulate discomforts, the microaggressions and everyday racism that I and other Asian students frequently encounter on campus.”

Much of Aya’s writing lies in how form itself becomes a means of understanding diasporic unease. 宿醉 uses numbers, time zones, and distance to describe disorientation, while An Uncomfortable Dictionary turns the dictionary format into a tool for identifying subtle racism that often resists explanation and reclaiming meanings in a world from which Aya and other Chinese LGBTQIA+ diasporas are frequently alienated. The workshops provided Aya with opportunities to discuss both pieces with other participants. An Uncomfortable Dictionary was later shortlisted for the 2026 Oxford–BNU Creative Writing Award.

In Yuwei 鱼尾’s Isikídke, the question shifts from where one belongs to what kinds of bodies and minds are expected to belong at all. Yuwei said the piece grew partly out of anger after being diagnosed as neurodivergent and being told that a lack of imagination could be a marker of autism: “So I decided to write something as imaginative, and as far from realism, as the diagnosis standard says I can’t be.”

The result is a cicada waking into a long winter of rime and freezing rain. The first word the world gives it is not live but Survive. A voice sends it in search of summer and three human beings. The cicada does not know how to fly, or even what a human being looks like; its search for others gradually becomes a search for kinship and for something like itself.

For Yuwei, the cicada also carries the discomfort of being queer, Chinese and diasporic: not feeling at home within the gendered world they knew in China, but not simply becoming at home after moving to Britain. “I wanted to use the cicada to express what it feels like to be a creature that does not quite understand what it is,” Yuwei said. “The climate changes, the world is not built for it, and it does not know where it belongs. It is trying to find others like itself — a queer community — and, in a way, to find its own queerness.”

Much of the force of Yuwei’s work lies in its distinctive form, which makes neuroqueer and disabled experience part of the act of reading itself. Through metaphors of cicadas, frost and apocalypse, speculative transformation and fragmented typography, Isikídke explores embodiment and the precarity of queer Chinese diasporic life while disrupting conventional ways of reading. Words are often broken into separate letters, passages flow from right to left, and deleted text remains visible. Yuwei explained, “As a dyslexic queer artist, I try to use these word experiments to help my readers experience what reading feels like for queer and disabled people. You have to pause, go back and figure things out — you can’t read smoothly across the page.”

 

EXCERPTS FROM ISIKÍDKE

Waking up in a winter. Waking into rime, waking into tearing fog, into freezing rain. They kiss my cheek, a baptism, and whisper: Survive.

「g o f i n d t h e s u m m e r k i s s t h e s u n a n d s i n g t h e f i r s t a l s o l a s t」

I don’t know the shape of human beings, like I don’t know how to fly.

Tender disgust flushes: Same kind. Us.

.life your waste Don’t :3#Sound

Written in English. The spacing, reversal and strikethrough are the author’s own.

The poem’s distinctive rhythm comes from its repeated return to these two refrains, giving it the quality of a prayer or incantation. Its religious language of prayer, crosses, eternity, heaven and gratitude turns the speaker’s ambivalence into something almost devotional, while the repeated “据说” (“it is said”) leaves ideas of civilisation and freedom deliberately unsettled. The poem never resolves these tensions; it keeps returning to them.

Tianyi wrote the poem shortly after graduating, weighing whether to remain in Britain, return to China, or seek a third option. London offered forms of freedom she valued, but staying as a recent graduate could also feel financially and emotionally exhausting. The poem refuses to resolve that contradiction: resentment towards a city for the anxiety it demands sits alongside gratitude for the queer life it makes possible.

 天一’s 我像是祈祷一般地过着这些日子 (I Live These Days as Though Praying) turns to the uncertainty of staying or leaving. Written shortly after graduation, the poem circles around two recurring lines — its title and “它几乎吞噬我却叫我心存感激”“It nearly devours me and still asks me to be grateful.” Between them are fragments of urban life, freedom, precarity and queer intimacy. 

EXCERPTS FROM 我像是祈祷一般地过着这些日子 (I LIVE THESE DAYS AS THOUGH PRAYING)

我像是祈祷一般地过着这些日子

城市里一只又一只鸽子被碾死在马路边

它几乎吞噬我却叫我心存感激

 

据说这里有最先进的文明

据说这里有自由

我像是祈祷一般地过着这些日子

……

我们的接吻是获得刹那永恒的方式

背上的十字架似乎轻了一点

它几乎吞噬我却叫我心存感激

I live these days as though praying.

In this city, one pigeon after another is crushed dead by the roadside.

It nearly devours me and still asks me to be grateful.

 

It is said that here is the most advanced civilisation.

It is said that here there is freedom.

I live these days as though praying.

[…]

Our kiss is how we take hold of an instant of the eternal.

The cross on my back feels a little lighter.

It nearly devours me and still asks me to be grateful.

These pieces move across migration, queerness, family, language and belonging, but in very different voices and forms. What mattered was not to smooth those differences out, but to create the conditions for people to express them on their own terms.– Yanran Yao, Lau China Institute

More voices in the collection 

The collection holds many other ways of writing diasporic life. Christina’s 白雾 (White Mist) lets a stray cat witness the uneasy intimacy of a mother and daughter reunited after four years apart; 文楚 Wen Chu’s 吃鸡 (Eating Chicken) turns the tastes of childhood into an archive of migration, family and memory; while Lingwen’s 关于焦虑的现象学笔记 (Phenomenological Notes on Anxiety) moves between heart-rate readings, philosophy and the Chinese character 虑 to rethink how anxiety is felt and understood.

An important part of this project was creating space for the Chinese-speaking LGBTQIA+ diaspora community to tell our own stories, in our own ways, rather than always having our experiences represented by others. For diaspora communities, language is not just a tool for communication; it carries our memories, identities and sense of cultural belonging. Having the freedom to choose which language we use to tell our stories is, in itself, part of having agency over our own narratives.– Qiu Bai, founder of Queer China UK

逆流 is stocked at Guanghwa Bookshop in London, and copies can also be bought through Queer China UK’s Instagram, @queerchinauk. Bookshops, libraries and community organisations interested in carrying the collection are welcome to get in touch.

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Yanran Yao

Yanran Yao

Affiliate Lecturer in Chinese Society

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